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Allah tarbiyahku dgn sesuatu yg amat bsr dan berat untuk jaulah ni. maaf takkan cukup, andai aku boleh gantikan tempat mereka. biarkan aku je ya Allah. ramai sngat yang terlibat, terkilan sangat.

saat aku berdoa “ya Allah, jangan kau uji lagi aku dengan…” pada detik itu, aku teringat yang aku hanyalah hambanya dan dia berhak atas segala-galanya. aku malu untuk teruskan doaku. aku hanya memohon agar dikuatkan hati dengan segala ini.

terasa canggung utk senyum lagi. maaf semua

doakan mereka dan saya T_T

With the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

First of all, minta maaf sangat2 kat En. Econs yang terpaksa menunggu aku clear kan sume yg berlegar-legar di mindaku tika ini. Kalau tak clearkan, cam berpusing-pusing je kat depan mata. Boleh jadi penghalang date
ngan En. Economics. So, excuse me for a while ye En.Econs..hee..

A: Usrah tu perlu ke?

Sebelum aku jawab persoalan tu, kte kne clear dengan definisi perlu itu sendiri. Jika parameter perlu itu macam perlu kita makan tiap2 hari, mandi n apa2 je then my answer would be..

Tentulah tak.

Sebab?

Aku selalu je skip makan. Makan ble aku terasa lapar je. Dan ble aku terasa rajin nak turun g Dewan Selera. Kalau tak, kirim salam sayang je kat makcik2 ds ye.

Kalau usrah la yang macam tu.

Selalu je skip usrah. Usrah ble aku terasa lemah je. Atau terasa bersemangat tetibe je. Then kalau x de perasaan ape2 (which is always kot T_T) x g. Kirim salam je kat kakak2 usrah tu ye.

Tentulah tak kan?

So, usrah tu mmg tak perlu untuk aku. Yes, tak perlu.

Sebab usrah tu hati aku. Macam mana hati tu nak hidup kalau hati tak ditarbiyah? tak datang usrah?

And boleh ke manusia tu hidup tanpa hati?
Or
‘Manusia’ ke manusia tanpa hati?

dan sebab Allah pun brfirman macam ni:

“Berangkatlah kamu baik dalam keadaan merasa ringan maupun berat, dan berjihadlah kamu dengan harta dan dirimu di jalan Allah. Yang demikian itu adalah lebih baik bagimu, jika kamu mengetahui”

(At-Taubah 9:41)

p/s: tarbiyah dan usrah tu, susah nak jelaskan macam mne pentingnya.. hanya tarbiyah tu sendiri yang boleh menjelaskan tarbiyah.

dan buku2 fikrah itu bertujuan untuk sendiri baca dan share..

bukan stakat bagi kat orang suruh mereka applykan kat kita..

seperti buku ni

“Tangan yang di atas jauh lebih baik berbanding yang di bawah”

p/s: Oh ya, lpe nak tanya..mereka itu penting atau tak untuk awak?

(^_^)

They..looked very determined and understand what they’re doing
Many of them are muslimeen and one of them that I could recognize as one of my best friends, a muslimah
Their faces.. I just can’t describe it, full of ‘nur ‘ deen I think
Their aim is just ALLAH..
Just ALLAH
I tell you, if you look at them you could definitely fall in love with them (seriously! =.=’)
“Sangat terjaga penampilan luaran dan dalaman”
But you know that in their eyes, the love is only for ALLAH
The way they look at us is because they LOVE ALLAH..
And you could not hope for more than that
He did not have any bad or even impure intention towards you,
He is still very kind to you
By not saying anything, but are always there to protect you and help when you’re in need
You will feel very hard to see him around, but you know that he’s always beside you,
ALWAYS..
And often, because of there is no tie between you and him,
He helps you out when you’re in difficulties by sending the other person to look at you
Without even showing his face in front of you purposely
But of course, you did know that it was him who’s trying to help you out
So, he’ll always take care of you and bring you to ALLAH with him
And Allah is the witness of everything..

p/s: have I told you that this is just a dream??

I’m so sorry if my blog is less ‘dakwi’. But after thinking for quite a while, I believe that you can always get the ‘bacaan fikrah’ from any books available. And I’m pretty sure that you have not finished reading ALL your books yet, am I right?

So, I decided to emphasis more on my journey and experiences in life. Berlapang dadalah, wahai sahabat-sahabat 🙂

So, bismilah..here we are..

I’ve attended ‘Perkasa Camp’ last week. But for all three days there, I could not feel anything as what my other friends felt at the camp. Emotionless, maybe??

Ouh, who cares.. (LOL, this is soo me!  )

But, I felt empty when all of them shed their tears when the motivator talk about one or two particular things, well, actually most of the things makes them cries. But not me. Seriously I couldn’t feel any of the sad things or just anything that makes me feels touched, wadda loser rite? Lol lol lol..

Yeah, say whatever you wanna say. One thing for sure, I also don’t know how but I could feel that I’ve change. I started to think and think about what have been said by the motivator during the camp. All my friends said that they have started to feel enthusiast to study harder for this sem. And they just got the feeling of truly motivated after being down after almost 3 sems in IB. One thing that I think the factor of I’m not crying during the camp is, I’ve stand on myself with the help of Allah just before I went to the camp.

There is a lot of sharing during the camp. All of the participants, including boys and girls, are so open to share our mind and experiences. Even with the boys, are so open to cry in front of all of us. They’ve thrown away their ego and share few stories and I can feel that they said it directly from their heart, subhanallah..

Just now, on my way to ‘dewan selera’. I bumped onto one of the brothers that have kindly shared his story to all of us. His story was like he’s one of the international athletes playing for Malaysia in Germany a few years back. And it was his dream. He even said, “Mesti korang pelik kan..kalau orang tu couple dengan someone, aku couple dengan something”. And that ‘something’ is hockey stick. He really love hockey. And he got his dream into reality. And of course, he did sacrifice a lot of things to achieve it.

Isn’t it enough to show that he once before was very down and lose his focus but now he’s so spirited.

Hence, why not me?

It’s not the matter of how much you fell but it’s the matter of how much you get up by yourself after you fell.

Huh, I missed the ‘jaulah’ made to Perak today. If only I could share the story with all of you some other day. InsyaAllah..

P/s: need to complete my CAS hours to be approved right next week..
p/ss : lpe lak..untuk info ‘keajaiban udara pagi’ sila tanye pakcik google ^^

Sometimes, I just want to be myself. But at the time I think of that way, I’ll automatically asked myself whether I could survive with my own lifestyle.

Hijrah is needed.

 

“Berangkatlah kamu baik dalam keadaan merasa ringan maupun berat, dan berjihadlah kamu dengan harta dan dirimu di jalan Allah. Yang demikian itu adalah lebih baik bagimu, jika kamu mengetahui. “

(At-Taubah 9:41)

I wonder how they can just sit down, staring at their assignments for hours and hours. And I, kept counting hours passed by and just waiting to sleep and get an enough rest.

I know, sleep should be the last choice, okay then, maybe listen to the music, or maybe watch a short video clip. It won’t be boring tiring though.

Or is it..just out of my own capability? I don’t know,

It’s okay..

Okay? Well yeah, if all your assignments completed.

Now, I just need to rest, just staring my beloved lappy and vomiting all my thought.

(help me convincing myself, will you?)

I’m an active person and I didn’t feel tired easily!

I’m full spirited!

I’m tough!

I’m a hero to myself!!!!

So Yanti, chill..There is a hero in YOU! 🙂